O.k. so it has been a while, and yes my camera is still broken, but I realized that it is still actually possible to post a blog without pictures. I know, shocking, I bet you didn't think it was possible either. So here we go. As you may have noticed by the title of this blog, I have been rather alone lately. Dan happens to be an accountant which means from January to about May we don't see him. Oh, he shows up every now and then to sleep in a bed, or lift something heavy, but other than that nada. In fact for some strange reason, he happened to be home this morning and I had to just look at him, since it had been awhile since I has seen him in daylight. He is still hot by the way, I checked. I remember when we were deciding on a career choice for him back in college. The decision was between International Law and Accounting. We went for accounting because Dan "really didn't want to work 60 hours a week and miss his family that much." HA! Last week he clocked 80 hours and that was a slow week. Silly us. Oh well, I have learned how to be extra independent during this time, so much so that when Dan does show up, I almost don't know what to do with him. I hope he will understand and quietly let me control everything from now on. Actually the reality is that Dan will start being home, we will have a huge argument, feel better, and get back to life. After four years of account widowing, I have got the routine down.
Another thing I have learned from all this, is that independent really just means being alone all the time. Except of course if you have kids, then your alone without ever actually being alone. Unfortunately being alone, then makes you feel lonely, so then you call your husband randomly throughout the day, telling him really meaningless things that are suddenly very important. Like some late breaking news on how Oprah went on a road trip, or guess what, I just opened a door! Isn't that exciting? I think the next time someone tells me that it is a good thing to be independent or that they are proud of there independence I am just going to give them a hug and ask if they want to go to a movie, the mall, or just look at rocks together. Because- hey...me too.
3 comments:
Oh Tannie I so know how you feel! I have so much more sympathy for single moms now! One more year for us though! Yippi!
Rachael
Tannie!
It's Lauren (Honey) Terry- your cousin in Kansas. I discovered all the cousin blogs yesterday, so they are all getting the same message. It's so fun to see how life is going for you. I thoroughly enjoyed your blog.
Rock watching sounds good! ;)
So now that I've found you out here in blogdom, won't you write some more?!?!
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