Sunday, February 24, 2008
It's never the same
Just when I think I have a handle on the whole motherhood thing, something happens to show me I know nothing. I am not sure why we like to put our kids in the same mold. It would be nice if what worked for the first kid, worked for every kid afterwards. Without going into details I recently had a situation where Logan had a literal melt down. I tried all my tricks as a mother. Everything I learned from Austin and four years of experienced mothering, and nothing worked. I just looked at him with all the same feelings of helplessness and insecurity that I felt when Austin was a newborn. It was so weird feeling that way. I was under the delusion that I "got it." I knew how to be a good mom now, because I already did it. Just like riding a bike. Unfortunately I have learned that Logan is NOT Austin. He is actually his own little person with his own, and very different, needs. It is like a trick. I feel like someone is pointing at me and saying "ha ha you thought you could ride, but you have to relearn that bike each time you get on!" So now it is time to let go of all my old tricks, learn some new ones, and really get to know the uniqueness and wonderfulness that is Logan Zachary Smith.
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4 comments:
Oh Tannie, I SO understand! Mothering is never completely learned, because your children are always changing and moving onto different levels. All we can do is try. Success is in the trying and not giving up!
(((hugs))) my kids may look alike but they act like they are from different PLANETS. You do have to relearn in a sense,with each one!
Tannie thanks for posting this little situation that you had, I feel this way everyday! Oh that sounds pathetic to you? Well I thought that little boys were supposed to be mellow and love their mommies. But I was really wrong too. So I guess that I too will be reinventing myself to deal with the second child.
Great postings Tannie, I loved the videos and the comments. I guess that is what this life is all about, the ability to change and adapt and somehow enjoy the process of not being in a comfortable rut!
love Mom aka Tricia
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